I don't even remember my prescription from the last time I'd gotten my eyes checked (most probably -2.5 for left eye and -2.75 for the right one) but by now it's definitely worsened, and I'll assume it's easily reached -5 or -6.
I kind of regret my habit of reading online books with super tiny fonts all night long throughout my childhood and teenage years, and even though my time spent on phone and technology has significantly reduced, quarantine and the shift to reading material in the pdf format isn't helping either. I'm genuinely scared. Is this a valid anxiety? I don't know, at times I'm truly scared and can't even sleep thinking I'll end up permanently blind.
I can't even properly talk to my family about my worsening eyesight. The very prime reason why I haven't talked to them about this is because they instantly start bashing me and nitpicking my faults and just calling me names despite all my anxieties. Ever since the day I'd had to wear spectacles or the time for eye checkup it's been the same habit of publicly humiliating me about how irresponsible lazy and stupid I am and how callous my attitude is and how I do nothing about caring for my eyes. I'm anxious enough as it is, I don't think I'd be able to handle more taunts on my head 24×7.
What should I even do? I was 15 when I had my last eye checkup and I'm still (18 now) wearing the same spectacles. It wasn't as bad till quarantine and when I finally left the house I realised I couldn't see details as clearly as I did before. It's genuinely terrifying me. I'll have to talk to my parents eventually of course, but I'm just trying to drag that conversation as late as I can because I know they'll just jump to instantly bashing me and my choices instead of being even a little helpful. I don't even know what to do
What should I do? And I'm sorry if my anxiety sounds irrational